Agnes Scofield never forgot, not over the course of her whole life, exactly how it felt to take flight. She remembered fleeing through a dark, entangled forest, emerging into a bright meadow, and lifting right off the ground straight up into the air. The memory was so clear to her that whenever it crossed her mind, she felt again that little clutch of initial euphoria and then the unexpected struggle of staying aloft. It had been nothing at all like the sensation she had expected. It was a more muscular, less buoyant experience than people imagined. With each rise and fall through the surprisingly dense atmosphere, there was the heavy drag of gravity.

In the third grade, when she was still Agnes Claytor, she had tried to explain this to her friend Edith, but Edith had only nodded; she was concentrating on the spill of jacks across the floor and how best to pick them up in groups of three. The only other person to whom she had confided her secret knowledge of flight was her husband, Warren Scofield, one summer evening when they were sitting out on the porch after supper. The children, including little Trudy Butler from next door, roamed the grounds of Scofields in the twilight, and although their voices could be heard, their words couldn't be discerned.

Small gray birds flitted and chittered in the rhododendrons, hydrangeas, and spreading yews that intermingled in a thick swath along the porch foundation, where they had been sparsely planted almost fifty years earlier but rarely pruned since then. The three large crows who inhabited the grounds of the Scofield houses and whose territory ranged over much of the acreage of Washburn, Ohio, circled the tall stand of Norway spruce, emitting bitter cries. Once again their hopes were dashed; once again the day had yielded nothing more than bleak disappointment.

Agnes sat quietly, watching them, and thinking that few people realized how grand they were, although she couldn't remember ever seeing a cheerful crow. Perhaps that explained their reputation: neither fierce, like hawks, nor robin-jolly, they failed to elicit human admiration and were loathed as nothing more than a nuisance. But they engaged Agnes's attention as she recognized the relief each bird experienced when finally it alighted at the very top of one of the spruces and settled there with a showy fluttering of wings, much shifting about, and loud crow mutterings as each balanced on its perch.

She told Warren that she remembered just how that felt, to attain certain footing on a branch, or, even more satisfying, she said, was the ease of a long, low glide into the meadow, where balance wasn't essential. She explained how it felt to rise and fall and catch a current of lifting air that allowed you to coast. "People don't imagine it at all the way it really is. It's more like riding a bicycle than, say, floating. Floating in water, I mean." Of course, she told him all this with a wry twist in her voice, tacitly acknowledging that such a thing never could have happened.

"You don't think you really did fly?" Warren said. "Even though you remember it so well after all this time? I think it was real. I think it was probably exactly like you remember it," he said pensively. "You can't know that it didn't happen. It's just other people who make you think it didn't."

"Oh, well . . . But, Warren . . . I haven't ever even told anyone but Edith -"

"No. What I mean is that if you were the only person in the world, then it would be true that you had once been able to fly."

"How do you mean? Like the tree falling in the forest? Whether it makes a sound if no one hears it?" Agnes asked. "But, anyway, if I was the only person in the world! I doubt if I'd even think about it much. If there was no one to compare myself to . . ."

"Well, that's right. That's what I'm saying. Say someone asked you flat out? If you had to swear to tell the truth-nothing but the truth-about whether or not you had ever been able to fly? You see what I mean?" Warren said. "What you know is that you flew. That's your actual experience. You only doubt it because no one else you know would believe it had happened. They'd put it down to a dream. Or an imagined memory. Don't you think so?" He wasn't really asking a question, he was trying to illustrate his point.

"I remember when I was about ten years old, I guess," he went on. "The first time I ever went with my father and Uncle Leo to see the new Corliss engine they'd just installed down at Scofields and Company. Even Uncle George was there. It was the first time we'd been allowed to visit the works. Robert and Lily came along, too. I'd heard my father and my uncles talk about that new engine. There was nothing else like it back then. Not in Ohio. Not anywhere west of the Mississippi. In fact, we manufactured the one at National Cash Register in Dayton," he said.

"But I hadn't ever seen one." He was no longer musing but briskly recounting the incident. "It was amazing to me. It was more astounding than I even had imagined. And the noise it made! All that power and the gleaming new metal. I realized all at once that I wasn't touching the floor. I was moving from one place to another, but I was floating. Well, no. I was taking steps, but not touching. . . . I was walking on air. Not very far, but I really did walk on air," he said, seeming to be surprised, himself, that it was so.

"You've heard people say they were 'literally walking on air'?" he asked her. "And everyone assumes they mean they were figuratively walking on air? That probably is what they mean most of the time. But there's got to be some reason that saying exists! People say, 'Oh, I was up in the air!' or 'I was over the moon,' or they even say, 'I was simply flying!'" Warren said.

"All those people who say that!" And he paused for a moment, considering it. "You know what? I think they forget that they know the feeling they're describing. Who can tell me that I didn't walk on air? Well, of course, I never said anything about it until just now. I don't know what Robert might have said, but I know Lily would've been annoyed. She wouldn't have believed me for a minute. Especially since she wasn't much interested in seeing that engine. But Uncle Leo was so pleased to show us. She wouldn't have wanted to disappoint her father."

Agnes knew immediately how Lily would have felt. She wouldn't have been annoyed because Warren had claimed to have walked on air; she would have felt left out. Since she had been the only girl of that threesome, she had told Agnes, she had always been on the verge of being ignored or left behind. "It turned me into a wily little tyrant," she had said to Agnes. "If I took charge- directed everything, made all the plans-they could hardly leave me out!"

Lily Scofield Butler was Warren's first cousin twice over: their mothers were sisters who had married the two older Scofield brothers. Lily and Warren had grown up next door to each other, and Robert Butler, who had completed their childhood threesome, had lived at the parsonage, just next to the Scofields compound on the Church Street side. Those three children had been born on exactly the same day: September fifteenth, 1888, and twenty-five years later, in 1913, Lily Scofield and Robert Butler were married. On this first warm evening of 1928, when everyone in Washburn had flung open their windows-when housewives had been able at last to hang their laundry outside in the fresh air instead of stringing it in rows among the pipes of their musty basements-all of the members of the Scofield family were in residence at Scofields, in Washburn, Ohio.

The three houses of the Scofields compound, just north of Monument Square, had been built in the 1880s for Leo, John, and George Scofield, and until the years following World War I, those three houses and their various outbuildings had marked the northern boundary of the town's residential section. Over the years, all three houses had remained occupied by one or another permutation of the Scofield family, changing hands within the family now and then, depending upon the inevitable deaths and births as the family carried on.

By 1928, however, Agnes and Warren Scofield sat out on the porch of the house where Warren had grown up; Lily and Robert Butler were just next door, reading the evening paper in the back study of Leo Scofield's house, and Leo Scofield himself and his brother George sat upstairs keeping company with Leo's wife, Audra, who was ill. None of them gave the fact much thought, but in the distance, each one of them could hear the youngest generation of Scofield children's voices mingling in a lowkeyed, after-supper game of some sort.

"What do you think now, though?" Agnes asked Warren. "Do you still believe it? That you really left the ground? That you did walk on air?" Agnes watched the light withdrawing incrementally and bobbed her foot to make the porch swing sway a little. "Do you remember the sensation? How it felt exactly?"

"Of course I do! I know I made my way across that room absolutely . . . untethered. It was as if I could move one way or another by pure intention. Who else can decide that but me? I remember it as clearly as if it happened yesterday. More than remember it, really. I mean, I don't remember it just as something that once happened. It's the sensation of it I recall." Agnes nodded, because she, too, remembered the surprise of making a labored ascent into the air and then achieving the remarkable delight of sailing over the ground.

"I wasn't trying to walk on air," Warren said. "It was something I hadn't ever thought about. There's no question in my mind that it happened. I mean, after all, we all only know ourselves! When you come right down to it, we've really just agreed to believe certain things communally. Religion, for instance. Or good and bad. Who's good or bad. We've all agreed on the story. I suppose there's no other way we could live in a society."

He was quiet for a moment, considering what he had said, which he often did in conversations with her, whereas he rarely sounded less than certain with anyone else. "We've all agreed to live in a sort of . . . oh . . . a sort of cocoon that's shaped of other people's idea of us. Don't you think so? But maybe before we're really aware of other people . . . Before we have any idea that they're entirely separate from ourselves-when we're literally selfish. Well, maybe that's a time in our lives when we can do all sorts of things, since we don't know the rules. And since we haven't started yet to worry about other people's opinions of us. Think of what we might do before we become self-conscious."

Agnes couldn't make out Warren's features anymore as the light faded; she could only see his bright hair and the general shape of him as he sat tilted back in the rocker with his long legs stretched out before him. She was curious. "You think there ever is a time when we're not aware of other people? When we aren't bumping up against what they're like to find out just what we're like ourselves?"

Warren turned toward her, and the light from the kitchen illuminated his almost sheepish smile. "I think that maybe for a little while we're unaware. . . . Ah, well. No. I guess I don't believe that, exactly. I guess it wouldn't be possible. But I do think that we all have a private nature - not like any other person's. I don't mean just that we're all separate personalities. I mean the thing about us that I suppose some people think of as our soul. The essence of ourselves. Our whole lives are really just an effort to fulfill a sort of quest of that essential self. Don't you think the good things-any bit of apparent altruism, I mean-don't you think that's always suspect? I think everything we do is self-centered. Not on purpose. I just think it's a condition we can't escape," he said, but the note of persuasion had gone out of his voice.

"But it does take a lot of strategy, " he said, but without his earlier urgency. "I mean to live to the very end of your life without killing yourself? Just to avoid the fear of dying. It's so tempting when you know you could outfox your own death. You could keep it from sneaking up on you. You could win, you see. Don't you think so?"

"Uhmm. Well, though. That doesn't strike me as much of a victory," Agnes said. She thought that Warren intended to be ironic, that he was teasing, but it made her uncomfortable. "Killing yourself. Why, no. I don't think that's ever a natural human instinct. Or a natural animal instinct. Though I remember Mama saying they had a cat who just decided to die after her father died. I don't suppose that's the same thing, though. It was passive. He wouldn't eat. Wouldn't even drink water. But how else could a cat kill himself? I wonder if it's possible." She paused for a moment to retrace her thoughts; Agnes often seemed to stray from the subject, but it was a logical progression, and by now Warren knew how she had gotten from one thought to another. He didn't interrupt her.

"Killing yourself would be something you'd be bound to think about, I guess," she said, "if you were in terrible pain, or . . . oh . . . knew that you were going to die in some horrible way. But otherwise . . . why in the world would that be an alternative? What makes you say a thing like that?"

Warren was quiet for a little while, and then he turned more solemn. "Oh, I don't know, Agnes. I think it's sort of like what you said about flying. About it not being as easy as just soaring through the air. Living is a lot more tiring than people realize when they begin it."

"Oh," she said, eager to drop the subject, "I don't really think anyone has any expectations at the beginning," Agnes said. "And besides! Tiring compared to what?"

During the following few days, however, Agnes did remember feelings of grief and some variation of defeated resignation or exhaustion that had made her indifferent to her life for hours-even days-at a time. She never forgot her solitary flight; nor did that conversation with Warren ever slip her mind.

For as far back as she could remember, Agnes had managed to slide out from under the turbulence of thoughts that descended upon her as soon as she settled in bed for the night and tried to go to sleep. As a child, she had learned to construct bits of circumstances-not necessarily related to one another-and pile them one upon another until they became a narrative that encompassed her entirely, so that she was led from consciousness directly into a sort of waking dream and then, eventually, into sleep. When she was very young she had delivered herself to the vivid landscape of fairy tales: deep, dark woods, sudden, brilliant pools of water, ominous stone castles, or thatched-roof cottages, every object saturated with its own color to a degree not possible in the real world.

In her early teens, she distracted herself from the accumulated anxiety of the day by concentrating on all the aspects of the ongoing political complexities of her school life. Or she recounted time spent with her friends, in which she was free of worry about the sad domestic life of her household. Her unhappy parents and the fragile peace-like the delicate net of a spider web-that just barely held her family together.

As Agnes got older still, she took her mind off real life by imagining the man she would marry-never anyone she had met thus far-and the exhilaration of being desired by him. Once, she awoke horrified to remember that she had been walking across the field from the Damerons' house on the way home and had spotted Will Dameron's head over the crest of the creek embankment. He had heard her coming and climbed up the bank to meet her, seemingly unaware that he was stark naked. He was telling her something or other, and she stood listening casually as if he were fully dressed. She woke up dreading the moment when he would realize he didn't have on a stitch of clothes.

But after she met Warren Scofield, when he had come out to the house on Coshocton Road to talk over some business with her father, Agnes had begun to anticipate sliding beneath her blankets for the night and imagining all sorts of moments when Warren would reveal to her that there was no one as lovely to him as she was. That he liked her looks despite her unruly hair, her sallow complexion, her short, full figure that made her look coarse, her mother often said. Even though Agnes's waist was small, she had the obvious figure of someone of bad breeding, Catherine Claytor remarked now and then, in despair over everything in her own life but taking aim that moment at her daughter's looks.

But in Agnes's imagination none of that mattered to Warren Scofield. He didn't notice her flaws, and, in fact, he implied that she was beautiful, and that he was deeply in love with her. The tale became far more seductive than any sleep, and she often had dreams from which she awoke mortified, unable for a moment to believe they were confined to her unconscious self. It took several long, anxious minutes before she could convince herself that she was alone in her own room without witnesses to the lazy, sensual pleasure of her dream of Warren. She also found herself peculiarly embarrassed at having dreamed various sexual experiences she wasn't at all sure could actually happen.

After they were married, Agnes would find that she might be at a perfectly civilized social gathering of some sort, but if she happened to glance at Warren wherever he might be-sitting with their hostess, perhaps, accepting a cup of coffee or tea-she would notice his long legs and remember the flex of muscle along his thigh, and she was helpless against the heat that climbed her throat and turned her face a blotchy red. She would duck her head in an effort to become invisible, flushed as she was with the idea of sex.

Sometimes at the family dinner table she would lose her appetite completely when she looked across the tablecloth at her husband. What are we doing? she would think, helpless against her ridiculous outrage, wasting our time with lamp chops. Bothering with lima beans, with a plate of cake? The two of them made love whenever they could, and Agnes generally fell asleep contentedly sated. The intensity of that lust never dissipated, except during Warren's black moods, which nothing could permeate, but those bleak spells only made sex between them less frequent, never less ardent.

After Warren died, though, Agnes was unable to fall asleep in their bedroom for months and months. She couldn't divert her thoughts, and she would move to another room or wander the house in the dark, waking at dawn and finding herself huddled in a chair in the sitting room, or, in that first summer after his death, when it was so hot for so long, she sometimes found herself out on the porch, curled comfortably in the swing. It was no good turning her thoughts toward the children, because Dwight and Claytor had been eleven and ten years old respectively when Warren died, Betts just shy of six, and Howard barely three. To consider those children and her sole responsibility for them made her frantic and furious and also scared to death.

In early February of 1930, Warren Scofield and his uncle Leo were on their way to Arbor City, Pennsylvania, to work out the details of the merger of Scofields & Company with Arthur Fitch and Sons. Warren was driving Leo's big car, and he had rounded a descending curve in the mountains of Pennsylvania when he either hit a patch of ice or swerved, perhaps, to miss an animal. For whatever reason, that shiny black Packard had gone hurtling out of control across the brittle winter grass toward the precipice until it hit an old maple tree growing along the verge. Both men were thrown from the car.

Leo's youngest brother, George Scofield, and two of Scofields' top engineers were about a half an hour behind them. Every member of the family had heard George say, at one time or another, that just for a moment, when he came around the curve, he thought his older brother, Leo, and his nephew were playing a trick or had decided to rest, to stretch out and nap. George thought that Warren had braced himself against the trunk of the tree and fallen asleep. The Packard sat with its doors hanging open, canted toward a sheer drop off the mountain, but, except for a dent in the fender and a smashed headlight, it appeared undamaged. For one brief instant George thought Warren had parked it there. That's how surprised he had been; that's how peaceful Leo and Warren had looked as they lay where they had died among the fallen brown leaves and withered brush.

Not long after that, Uncle George had said to Agnes that if only Warren had lived a little longer, he might have turned into enough of a scoundrel that they wouldn't all miss him so much. And a few months or so after Warren died, Lily Butler, whose father, Leo Scofield, had also been killed, of course, swooped down on Agnes from her house next door and fetched her up like an owl snatching a field mouse by the scruff of its neck.

"You don't have time for all this, Agnes. You're only thirty years old! You've got such a long time ahead of you-you've got happy surprises ahead of you, too! You've got to get things in order. We're all grieved! I loved them, too! I loved them, too! My father . . . Oh, and Warren . . . but you've got to raise these children. And Robert and I will do anything in the world to help, but you've got to pull yourself together."

And that's what Agnes did. She had fallen into a state of guilty brooding and second-guessing, wondering if she could have prevented Warren from making that trip on such an icy day. She was miserable with regret and sorrow, as though she were bruised from head to foot, although when Lily confronted her, Agnes was embarrassed not to have better hidden her despair. She knew from experi- ence the embarrassment another person's legitimate desolation calls forth, and she made a fairly successful effort simply to close down part of her sensibility.

Her grief, though, was a separate thing altogether. It was a gradual education, really, that served to delineate her by eliminating solace, paring away any mitigating circumstances of her life-the existence of her children, for example, was not a comfort in the immediate aftermath of Warren's death. Their inevitable transience in the world had been summarily brought to her attention. The ballast of her life had been jettisoned, and occasionally she had a brief glimpse of where she stood, now. In the first few years, it wasn't only Warren's absence that rendered her hopeless; nor was it only a crisis of mortality; it was also her newfound understanding of the loneliness of living all the way through the rest of her life.

By the time Dwight and Claytor were finishing high school and Agnes was in her late thirties, she lay in bed at night courting sleep by imagining the children's futures. How grand their lives would be with their good looks, their wit and charm and intelligence. Howard and Betts, too, although whenever Agnes began to imagine Betts's future, she got off track and began to worry once more. Nevertheless, her renewed and optimistic dreams for her children carried her through the years the older two boys were away at college and even the years Dwight and Claytor were in law school and medical school respectively. The war in Europe hung over Scofields just as it hung over every household in the country, and as soon as Claytor received his medical degree from Johns Hopkins, he enlisted in the army, where he was made a captain after he finished basic training. Dwight, too, left in the middle of his second year of law school, in 1941, in order to enlist as an officer in the Army Air Corps. A college degree assured them an officer's rank, and each felt it would give him more control over his life than if he waited until the Selective Service began calling people up.

Of course, Agnes had anticipated Dwight's and Claytor's leave-taking-all over town families were seeing their sons off to various branches of the armed services. The two older boys had come home in order to go away again. Leaving home was something they thought they had already accomplished. While they were away at school, however, Agnes was always prepared for them to return-one or both for Christmas, for long weeks of summer; they hadn't departed for school in the same way that they were suddenly gone when they enlisted, and Agnes didn't allow herself to think of what might happen when or if either one was sent to Europe.

Agnes turned her nighttime reveries to imagining what she could do for Howard and Betts if only there were any extra money. She could send Howard off to college without any of the worry that had attended the financial arrangements she had made for Dwight and Claytor. Betts had no desire to spend any more years at school, but Agnes was drowsily specific, as she settled into sleep, in dreaming up the sedate and beautiful wardrobe she could furnish her daughter if only there were enough money to splurge a little. She would buy a soft blue wool coat with a fur collar to frame Betts's face, for instance. And Betts would be so surprised. Betts would see right away the sort of aristocratic good looks she could attain.

Agnes lulled herself to sleep night after night by imagining that out of the blue she had inherited a nice little sum of money. Because, to everyone's surprise, when Warren and Leo Scofield died, it turned out that not only had Warren's late father, John, sold some shares of his stock to Arthur Fitch, John had mortgaged most of his share of the company to him for a sizable amount of money-far more than it was worth at the time. He had sold to Fitch instead of giving Leo first refusal or, in fact, even consulting his brothers or his son. After his father's death only Warren had been informed of the situation by his father's lawyer, and he hadn't revealed it to anyone; he had been struggling to pay off the loan himself.

But Agnes was left stranded in a financially tenuous situation, because there had been nothing to inherit at all. The house had belonged to Warren's mother, of course, but after her husband's death in 1926, Lillian had the carriage barn just behind the main house converted into a cottage for herself, and Warren's family moved into the main house. Lillian had long ago given it over to Warren and his wife. That familiar and comfortable old house, though, generated a host of expenses all on its own, just sitting there through the seasons. It never crossed Agnes's mind to move, however; the house was where her children lived.

Lily had hurried to assure Agnes that she intended to make a gift to Betts of the tuition for the Linus Gilchrest Institute for Girls, and Agnes accepted with gratitude on Betts's behalf. Robert had helped Agnes find a job teaching at Jesser Grammar School, but her salary was modest, and she wasn't paid in the summer. Agnes had a little money from her mother's estate, and after the sudden deaths of Warren and Leo Scofield, when her father and his second wife had been in Washburn for the funeral, he had sat down with Agnes in private to see what would be best to do.

Agnes's father's youngest son and namesake, Dwight Claytor, was also, of course, Agnes's youngest brother, but since his birth he had also been the oldest child in Agnes and Warren Scofield's house. He had been handed over to Agnes the moment he was born, during the Spanish Influenza epidemic in 1918, just as the war was drawing to a close. His and Agnes's mother, Catherine Claytor, died of the flu less than two weeks after Dwight's birth, as had Agnes's younger brother Edson. Agnes hadn't even had sufficient time to contemplate the situation, nor had she had time to grieve. Not only had she found herself solely responsible for the baby, but she had also been pregnant herself with her and Warren's first child.

Eleven years later-right after Warren's death- Agnes hadn't even considered the fact that her youngest brother, Dwight, had a father of his own, that he had a safe welcome elsewhere and could certainly leave her household. Agnes's father suggested that perhaps that would be a help. "There are good schools in D.C.," he said. "Lots of things going on . . . Dwight and Claytor always enjoy visiting. And, of course, your brothers are in and out of town, and Camille likes having young people . . ."

Agnes seemed puzzled, at first, and then her expression took on a flat, shocked look as her understanding of what he was suggesting settled over her. He changed direction before she expressed outrage or dismay, which was the last thing he intended to cause. After all, the older Dwight Claytor had been away when little Dwight was born, away when so much misfortune befell his family. He had never seen his youngest son at a time when he was not under Agnes's care, settled comfortably, and made much of in the Scofield compound in Washburn. "In any case," he said, holding out his hands in a gesture of appeasement, "I had thought that it would be a help if I contributed a little more to your finances, Agnes. It's expensive to have a growing family, I know. Surely you could use some help?"

It was years later when she realized that if he had not stepped in, she would have been forced to sell the house, and it was largely through his help that Dwight and Claytor had financed their undergraduate college expenses. Even through her spells of resentment and anger toward her father-primarily on her mother's behalf-Agnes did appreciate his generosity to her and to all her children, not only to his son Dwight. With his help and Robert and Lily's emotional and sometimes financial support, Agnes got by pretty well, although there was never a time that a need for money was not on her mind.

Dwight and Claytor were gone by late January of 1941, and Betts graduated from high school that same year. She accepted a job offered to her by her great-uncle George Scofield, to manage his suddenly popular Mid-Ohio Civil War Museum, which-as silly as both Betts and Agnes thought the whole enterprise to be-was a fairly demanding undertaking. Betts lived at home in order to save money, and she and her mother fell into a surprisingly pleasant domesticity. Whoever got home from work first would get something started for dinner and often put together a little plate of Ritz crackers with peanut butter, or celery stuffed with pimento cheese. Agnes loved smoked oysters or sardines on crackers with a little lemon juice. They both indulged themselves now and then by roasting pecans or walnuts, which Betts liked sprinkled with sugar and cinnamon but which Agnes preferred plain with salt, so they split the batch and made both. When the other one got home, they would sit together and have a cocktail or a glass of sherry.

"What a day," Agnes might say if she came in after Betts was already stretched out on the sofa with her feet up. "I tell you, I sometimes think Bernice doesn't have a brain in her head. All during recess . . . She was telling me something about a package she'd had from Will. I still don't have any idea what that was all about. She got off track trying to remember what she was wearing when she went into town to pick it up. 'Now, I had on my old brown coat, because my green coat needs new buttons. Or maybe I did have on my green coat, because I did sew on those buttons Wednesday . . .'" Agnes shook her head in exasperation and took a sip of sherry. "Sometimes I just want to shake her! But then she'll come into my classroom if she hears things getting out of hand. Just as if she happened to be passing by. Today she managed to suggest a new seating arrangement for reading aloud. Putting the good readers next to the ones who are going slow-it made such a difference." Bernice Dameron taught the third-grade class across the hall from Agnes, and although Bernice wasn't particularly beloved by the students, she was admired and respected. Agnes often resorted to a persuasive but cowardly charm to keep order in her classroom, and she was wildly popular but well aware that Bernice was the best teacher in the school.

Sometimes Betts would tell her about unusual visitors to the museum. "A woman came in today who's working on her doctoral dissertation. I don't think I know a woman who has a doctorate. She's mostly interested in the letters and diaries, though. I set her up in that little room Uncle George furnished like it would have been during the war. There's a desk, but I had to chase down a lamp. She'll be in and out all week. Maybe I'll see if she'd like to come to supper."

Howard was generally involved in something after school until almost seven, and then the three of them sat down to dinner. Their domestic regimen had a little of a make-believe aspect, as though they were playing house, establishing their small rituals, as they adapted to the absence of Dwight and Claytor. Of course, Dwight and Claytor had been away at school for years, but Agnes and Betts and Howard hadn't felt separated from them in the same way they did now that Dwight and Claytor were in the army. Now there was an entire official bureaucracy between those boys and their own family.

Everyone shifted roles a little bit, and life at Scofields carried on pretty much as usual until Betts began planning to leave. After a year working at the museum, she was heading off with her friend Nancy Turner to Washington, D.C., where Nancy's uncle, who was with the Office of Price Administration, had helped them find secretarial jobs in the mushrooming business of going to war.

Betts spent a few weeks putting things in order for Uncle George at the museum. She made up a calendar with dates and times of upcoming school tours, several garden club visits from around Marshal County, and the evening the Knights of Fithian were holding a banquet, catered by the Eola Arms Hotel, in the original dining room. Uncle George had urged her not to cancel any visits already scheduled-he would conduct those tours himself-but he had asked her not to arrange any further visits.

For the duration of the war, the museum would be open to the public whenever Uncle George could be available. It was housed in the building across from Monument Square that had originally been built in the 1880s as George's residence, where it was assumed he would live with a family of his own, but he never married, and since he traveled so much, he didn't set up housekeeping for himself but had always lived with one or the other of his older brothers. After Leo's death, George lived with his niece, Lily, and her husband, Robert Butler. He kept a bedroom furnished for himself in his own house, but otherwise he had turned his own residence entirely over to the display of his collection. He was toying, though, with the idea of inhabiting his own house permanently, just to keep an eye on things.

All the while Betts made arrangements for leaving, she was dishearteningly agreeable and cooperative and subdued. Hers was a gravity that did nothing to conceal the underlying current of her euphoria. In truth, she was genuinely thrilled with the legitimate and communal notion of being swept up into the full force of a solemn cause. But all at once the rooms felt vast to Agnes, even when she only imagined Betts's absence. Agnes began to study her daughter more carefully-to memorize her- when they were having coffee in the morning, when they were in any room together.

Betts had been taller than all of her friends during most of high school, and she had been angular and extravagant in her movements, her broad gestures, her long strides across a room. She had been an awkward girl, careening around Washburn as though she were herding her group of petite friends as they moved around town in a cluster. Trudy Butler was probably Betts's closest friend, and Trudy was considered very attractive, although Agnes had never thought she was particularly pretty. Trudy was small and dark-haired, with a complicated, pointed face which was serenely composed. Her emotions didn't fly across her features the way they did across the faces of all the other Scofields. All of Betts's friends were pert and vivacious, seeming even lovelier than they were, in fact, simply because of all the possibilities ahead of them. Betts could never be pert. Her gestures were wide and bony; her voice ungirlish, with a steely note running straight through her sentences, grounding her words in the category of drama rather than flirtation.

Agnes had worried about her, but Betts never seemed to care about her popularity one way or another; she was doted on by Dwight and Claytor-who were referred to as the "Tarleton twins" by all those friends of Betts's who had crushes on them, after the loutish but handsome young brothers in Gone with the Wind who rushed heedlessly off to war. Trudy objected to that. "The Tarleton twins were just dolts!" Trudy said. "Handsome, but stupid and coarse. That's not a thing like Dwight and Claytor!" Trudy always rose to the bait, but Betts just laughed and let it go, since it was teasingly meant as a compliment.

All through high school Betts was at the center of whatever was going on, and if there was no particular boy paying attention to her, it was true that all the boyfriends of the other girls liked and admired Betts. She was as talented an athlete as her aunt Lily had been, and she understood that games were never frivolous, which very few of the girls at school seemed to realize. And, too, she was witty and very smart, which always ensures popularity for anyone who is also endowed with some degree of social grace.

But not long after she graduated from the Linus Gilchrest Institute for Girls, Betts seemed to come into possession of her own height; she began to acquire synchronization. All of the separate parts of Betts suddenly fell into place. She was dramatic all of a sudden, with her blond hair and her characteristically Scofield large, dark brown eyes. She even appeared to move differently through the rooms of the house, across the yard-anywhere Agnes happened to catch sight of her. Everything about Betts's gestures and expressions had always seemed larger than life, had seemed amplified, somehow. But what had once seemed awkward now seemed sinuous, like the oddly sensual overanimation of Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.

In fact, once Betts knew she would be leaving for Washington, and word of her eventual departure spread, she was in great demand. She rarely had time to join Agnes for a drink before dinner; Betts had dates night after night and attended one farewell party after another for other friends who were departing. Agnes missed her daughter very much even before she left, and, simultaneously, Agnes wished Betts were already gone, because the two of them had fallen back into the habit of being exasperated with and prickly toward each other.

Since there really wasn't an extra penny, and she had a good bit of time on her hands, Agnes spent her evenings sewing what she considered a career girl's wardrobe for Betts to take to Washington. Agnes had bolts of unused fabrics, some from as long ago as when they were her mother's and even some she had inherited from her greataunt Cettie. Wonderful material that was no longer available anywhere and that was a pleasure to work with. Agnes was a passionate seamstress, and since she was making these clothes as a gift, she took the liberty of making wardrobe choices for her daughter.

She made two beautifully tailored suits for Betts. One a soft dove-gray wool and one of dark blue linen. Agnes took great pains to make the suits look like they had been bought at a fine dress shop. She knew about and even endorsed Betts's worry of seeming unsophisticated, a country girl at large in the chaos of Washington. Agnes spent a great deal of time blocking the padded shoulders over a wood form and steaming the sleeves into a beautiful drape from the seam.

"These are just amazing, Mama. I could never have found suits so well made anywhere. Or that ever fit me like this. But I'll be about as colorful as a sparrow!"

"Oh, well, Betts. With your blond hair . . . with your coloring! My mother always said that clothes should fit perfectly and show you off. That it shouldn't ever be the other way around! Mama didn't have a very happy life, you know . . . but she was famous for being so stylish. So beautiful. You remind me of her. She was tall and with blond hair, too. Well, of course, you've seen pictures. . . . But you have her look of . . . oh . . . of elegance, I guess. As if she were a member of some grand aristocracy. You've got that, too, Betts."

But Betts and her mother didn't agree about clothes. Betts loved brilliant colors and any sort of exaggeration of a style. She was always coming home triumphantly with great bargains she had found. "Betts," Agnes had said two weeks earlier, when her daughter came home with two pairs of open-toed, sling-back shoes-one pair a bright red leather and the other black patent-"the reason you can get these marked down so much is that no one else in Washburn would be caught dead in them. What I think . . . It just seems to me, Betts, that open-toed shoes are so . . . trashy!" But Betts's enthusiasm remained unsquelched. The Saturday afternoon that Agnes had finished running up a simple pattern for Betts of a navy sailor-type dress with a white collar and red piping, Betts was overjoyed when she tried it on. "I'll wear this tonight!" She turned sideways and was delighted at how the dress nipped in at the waist, flattering her figure and drawing attention to her long legs, since the dropped-waist skirt was cut on the bias and had a slight flutter at the hem when she walked. "I look wonderful in this," she said. "Thank you, Mama! I love this dress, and we're going out to the lake for a dance to see John Hart and Billy Oliver off."

"You do look pretty, Betts. You'll leave a trail of broken hearts." And Betts grinned because she knew it might be true. Not broken hearts, but a few crushes that some of the boys in Washburn had developed when all of a sudden they looked around and found that Betts Scofield was a beauty. She had always been around town, but all at once she was mysteriously glamorous.

That evening, though, when Betts was dressing, she wailed from upstairs while Agnes and Howard were still at the dinner table. "My new red shoes! My new red shoes with the open toes! The sling-backs! Where have they gone? They aren't anywhere! Oh, Mother!" And Howard and Agnes had exchanged a wary glance.

"You've hidden them, Mother! Mama! I know you've hidden them!" But Agnes wondered how on earth Betts could ever find anything in her room. She was extravagantly untidy.

"I won't have you saying such things to me, Betts," Agnes had said. But Betts searched the house in vehement indignation, even taking the cushions off the couch, looking on the high shelf in the broom closet. Agnes thought that the navy blue pumps Betts had worn to work would be much more suitable, anyway, although she knew better than to say so.

Agnes cleared the table and scraped the plates while Betts searched up and down the stairs for those red shoes. The household had grown accustomed to weathering these scenes. And, to be fair, Betts was equally effusive when she was happy. Once, as Warren tried to restrain his threeyear- old daughter, who was very nearly in a full-blown tantrum because she couldn't open the heavy front door for herself, he had said to Agnes that Betts would grow up into an adult who would be genuinely surprised to realize that many people considered emotional restraint a virtue. He had made that remark, but he had made it with fond exasperation; he had adored Betts, had adored all the children.

Betts finally appeared wearing her new dress and the respectable blue pumps, and she was so angry she didn't look at her mother. "I know you've hidden those shoes, Mama. Don't think for a minute that I don't know that." Agnes had her hands in the dishwater, busy with the cups and saucers and dinner plates. She lifted her chin slightly, and her mouth was grimly set. She didn't make any reply at all, and, just then, Hal Railsback arrived. He had been Betts's favorite date for the last month or so, and Betts hurried to meet him at the door and leave the house before Howard invited Hal to come in.

Howard carried the garbage out to the compost heap before he left on his own date for the evening, and Agnes didn't even give a thought to that pair of red shoes, firmly wrapped in newspaper and at least three days buried under coffee grounds and orange peels. She couldn't bear to let Betts make a fool of herself, but Agnes had conscientiously slipped the full cost of the shoes-not even the marked-down price Betts had paid for them-into Betts's sequined evening bag. She would discover it when she went to the formal dance at the Eola Arms the following weekend. So, as it turned out, Agnes reasoned, Betts had profited from the situation.

The morning of Betts's departure had been predictably exhausting, and yet Howard and Agnes and Betts were all taken by surprise by the irritation each one felt at the other two by the time they got Betts packed and ready to go. Howard carried countless boxes downstairs and then was sent by Betts to retrieve them. Agnes tried to refold Betts's freshly ironed clothes using tissue paper to prevent their wrinkling, but that had only served to send Betts into a frenzy of anxiety. How would she manage? Would she seem as green as grass with her homemade Washburn wardrobe?

Agnes considered reminding Betts that she had declared she was going to Washington to help the war effort, to do her part. Betts had indulged herself in the idea of selfsacrifice. But Agnes knew that Betts's attack of uncertainty and her desire to do her part in the drama of the time could certainly exist simultaneously, and she kept quiet. When Nancy Turner and her father finally arrived to collect Betts and her luggage, Betts and Agnes were both teary-eyed with dismay and frustration, and it was with some relief as well as sorrow that they embraced and said good-bye.

Excerpted from The Truth of the Matter © Copyright 2012 by Robb Forman Dew. Reprinted with permission by LITTLE, BROWN. All rights reserved.